My heart is in EVERYTHING I do...

Lets get to the point of this journal-
I deleted an entry, that ALOT of people liked,
I deleted it, because I realized something.

It feels like my heart is being ripped out
When someone asks me if they could use it.

I am sorry to be blunt.
But FUCK YOU!
Yes, I appreciate your kind words &&
Telling me that you thought it was amazing
And good enough for you yourself to use it.
But you have no fucking idea, what I put into that piece.
How long I worked on it.
And to ask me, after I have it clearly started, that I would
Draw you your own- if you could use it.
I am angered.
Because that is my heart, my tears, my pain, my past,
My leasons, my regret, my honor, my...everything...
Thats what that drawing means to me.

I drew it, and ya know, it took SOOOOOO long to get to that drawing you all saw. And to just have someone come along && steal it. I would rather you shot me in the heart, because thats basicly what you did already.

I am an artist, this is my LIFE, MY HEART & MY WORLD!
My passion.

And whoever did see it && you want ONE OF YOU OWN DRAWN-
I will draw you YOUR OWN!

Because stealing someone elses art is fucking wrong, and you should feel like a shitty fucking person. Because thats what you are. Because if the artist doesn't say, "Yea, whoever wants to use this design ya can." Most likely, they dont want you to use it. Its not yours, so back off.

And if you liked it, and feel kinda disappointed-
Fuck off again. Look for an artist, at a parlor like EVERYONE else. They can really help you out, thats their job. I dont get paid to draw designs up for you people && I dont charge you. And I dont get paid for you people stealing my shit either.

So simply...
If your gonna come and rip my heart out, atleast let me do the same to you. Ya know. An eye for an eye, kinda thing!

:End of rant:

I thought I would give my watchers a heads up-
I will be making alot of photos from my "Beautiful Blood" folder made into prints, so you guys can buy them if you really do love them.

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I will also be making alot of my sky photography & some of my photos from my photoshoot folder into prints also. But if you want any photo made into a print, and I didn't make it into a print, just comment this blog or the photo, and I will make it into a print for you.

So yea, just a small heads up

Incase you were woundering!

Are NOT ART

Hello,

I just wanted to express my anger about how people think Self Harm is art.
It's not. And It really pisses me off when I go through this site, in its searchs and I see REAL wounds up here as art.

Listen up kids, I did that, I used to cut myself once apon a fucking time, and I never called it art, maybe its because I have a firm grip on reality, and you don't. But fuck, what the fuck is the matter with you??? I never showed my cuts to ANYONE.
Because I was NEVER proud of them.

And this is something that pisses me off even more,
Because I do Special Effects Make-up...so sometimes my work gets deleted mainly because people do not know how to read. Because under every special effects, bloody, gore filled photo of mine, I have it stated, that IT'S FAKE! Just make-up. But yet, my work, that I put time, energy & love into gets deleted because some little dipshits, aren't artistic and they do not have enough common sense, and have to literally cut themselves and have DeviantART make that policy (and thank Christ for the policy) That CLEARY fucking states that Self inflicted wounds are not allowed.

It really just pisses me off.
I can tell what is make-up and what is real.
I am an artist, and I used to be a cutter, for like 10+ years I cut.


So, I guess I am just saying this or making this journal incase one of those ignorant assholes happens to come across my profile and maybe read this, and maybe I could have helped them bit.


Simply....

YOU CUT YOURSELF, ITS NOT ART, NO MATTER HOW BADLY YOU WANT PEOPLE TO SEE IT AS ART. IT'S NOT. WHEN I DID IT. I DIDN'T CONSIDER IT ART, BECAUSE ONCE YOU CONSIDER IT ART, ITS JUST AN EXCUSE TO TELL YOURSELF & EVERYONE AROUND THAT YOU ARE ALRIGHT & DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM, WHEN YOU REALLY DO.

IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE TO CUT YOURSELF, PLEASE KEEP IT YOURSELF, AND LEAVE IT OFF OF DEVIANTART IT DOESN'T MAKE YOU AN ARTIST THAT YOU CAN RUN A RAZOR ACROSS YOUR WRISTS, ALL IT SHOWS PEOPLE IS THAT YOU NEED HELP.


Simple as that.

I have been down this road, I know what its ALL about.

DeviantID




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Thanks

Hello

I have been doing alot of special effects make-up lately,
And sometimes I do not have any ideas, I cannot think of anything.

So if anyone has an idea,
Check out my "Beautiful Blood" album
And check everything out, and if you have an idea
And realized that I have not done anything like it.
I would love to hear it

In detail,
And if I like the idea and it seems to be
Different and interesting
I will do it and credit you in the caption area for the idea

So, if you have an gorey ideas,
Please, I would love to hear them.
Simply because everyone has a different
View on things, so I would love to hear what
Some of you think or would like to see

If you do have an idea, note me about it
And I will tell you if I will use it!
And then I will send you the link so
You can check it out!

Thanks